On My Heart...

You may be thinking that I am going to relay some things that the Lord has laid on my heart, but no, that's not exactly what this post is. The reason I am really writing this post is because I have heard this phrase quite a few times lately! About a month or so ago a friend Kasey sent me a message on Facebook telling me that early that morning she wasn't able to sleep so she started praying. Then she said the words, "The Lord laid you on my heart". I was so touched by that! It meant so much to me to hear. It was a morning I truly needed to hear that. The Lord had her praying for things that I don't normally share with anyone. It's amazing how God works! A little bit later Kasey sent a message to my inbox to tell me that the Lord laid me on her heart again and kept bringing me to heart and mind about certain things that she finally had to share with me. It was definitely such a huge blessing in my life at this time! There are still other times where she will jot me a note to let me know the Lord laid me on her heart and she prayed for me. A couple of months ago, a couple of former students of mine-twins (Tiff and Sam), who I now have as friends, each on totally different days told me they were praying for me. What a special feeling to know that, especially since they are former students of mine. As they grew up we went from student/teacher relationship to friends. How special to hear those words, just wanted you to know I prayed for you because the Lord laid you on my heart! Just last week a highschool teacher that I had recently talked to went by my room and just quickly let me know that she had prayed for me. What a special feeling! Once again the Lord put me on someone's heart. Then, a day or so later, a friend who is now working at the school blessed me and had me in tears after school. This friend, Sarah, has gotten together with some parents at the school and every morning they pray for the school, teachers, students, the principal, and any others who work or help at the school. Well, she told me that last week they decided to pray for me, specifically for the Lord's will for my life in the area of singleness. Talk about overwhelmed, I truly was blessed by that! It's a pretty incredible feeling! If you can believe it, it happened again, just a couple of days ago. I was watching my UConn boys and I posted on Facebook that those were the times I missed my pappy because we would always watch the college basketball games together. If it wasn't our team, then we would just choose a team as we watched and cheer for them. Then when our team won we would cheer and scream and have so much fun. Of course, that would drive mom a little crazy as we would usually end up waking her up and she would always worry about the neighbors, which of course could hear nothing as we were downstairs in the basement. :) It was a cute thought though. :) Well, when I posted that I missed him, yet another friend told me she was sending hugs my way, then she said, "I often find myself thinking of you and praying, God just puts you on my heart"! Wow, my heart was just so blesses and overwhelmed by this. So many times recently the Lord has shown Himself to me in just that simple phrase. How can I doubt that He loves and cares for me when I constantly have been getting that reminder. This is to my shame, though, because so many times recently I have been telling the Lord that I didn't feel Him, I didn't feel that He cared, or I just didn't understand why I was struggling with so many of the things in my life and wondered where He was. Could He be making it any more clear to me? Sometimes it takes me a while to get things, but I kinda think I got this one...if He keeps putting me on people's hearts, then doesn't that make sense that I am constantly on His heart? What an awesome feeling!! I'm so thankful for so many wonderful people in my life, and SO thankful for His love for me!
Thank you so much, Lord for showing me your love over and over and over...and over again! Forgive me for those too often times of doubt. Each time those wrong, silly thoughts come into my mind may I remember these moments again and just feel your constant embrace! Help me to love you that much as well. And, help me to be able to be that much of an encouragement to someone else that needs to feel, know, and be reminded of your love. Be my all in all! I love you, Lord!